So, it's been almost 3 weeks since I stopped nursing Gavin. He is doing SO well. I am very proud of him. It took about 5 days til he stopped having withdrawls and cryfests from me telling him that they went bye-bye...and 2 weeks for him to stop asking for it. Every now and then, when he sees my chest, he points and gets excited. I do have to wear a bathing suit in the tub when we bathe together lol.
I'm also very proud of myself. I didn't know how hard this would be for me. Yes, I am so happy to have my breasts back, and I'm sure my husband is happy too! haha. (had to say it!)...but emotionally, I am not happy about my decision. I did set up a goal for myself, to nurse Gavin between 2-3 years old.
Although, most of my nursing time was a beautiful thing, I did receive some hate for it...I didn't realize something so natural, and human would give me so much criticism! It's the most beautiful and natural thing a mother can offer to her child! But yes, I got criticized for it. I was looked at by disgust from a few people, made fun of, and I was even told not to nurse in someones house because of it. (because he was almost 2, and this person thought that was ridiculous)...moving on!
And the bond...wow, do I miss the bonding! Yes, we do bond in other ways. But breastfeeding was the one thing I could say only we could do! Our special time.
So yes...it's been almost 3 weeks...I was VERY emotional at first...then I became used to the idea that, ok, this is it...we're done! Happy Face, but sad emotions. And just out of the blue, I became sad all over again. I told my husband just now, I wish I could go in there, wake him up, cuddle and nurse with him. Ugh....I just want to cry. I miss it so much!
Sorry for the sobfest...just had to get that out!!
